i’m not meant for this
but that doesn’t mean it will stop
tense my arms until my hands lose grip
they rest my body among stray dogs
we know how to love and starve
but not much else
we’re still settling water
apologising before we’ve committed our wrongs
unable to discern strangers and surfaces
all i want is to keep you safe
so why do you throw me into walls?
keep my heart still until your footsteps subside
it’s easier to keep it under breath
maybe we’re not meant for more
just waiting on shadows without you
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