what is belonging within you?
what angels writhe in your veins?
hasten the blood rush to your tongue
splitting between forgiveness and rotten teeth
laugh when i cry over threadbare attachments
the flesh i am left without was flesh i did not need
so why must i mourn on phantom pain?
cover up the cancer until the memories fade
but i can’t, and they won’t
my head still rests upon irregular heartbeats
eyes pinned back like specimens, serrated at the edges
i pull until my body is maimed limbless
do i reside in you, infectiously?
as you do for me, repeatedly
all of the worst things you could say
in occupation of every silence craved
you love me more when i hate myself
the temporary is tiring, cut the loss
repeat the cycle, a routine poisoning
on the constant verge of no longer mattering
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