xxix

kept the world faint outside my head
dreaming delirious, something inexplicable
waning into you, wanting to take shape
but i am unlike shared motions
i’m tracing shadows out of sight, out of familiarity
their faces read a different glow
i am not one of your own, not the way i crave
sinking into fragile blue, starless eves
lovesick skies undeserving of light
i form the distance where i cannot grow
apologetic denial becomes habitual
addiction to replace addiction
it’s a lost faith in a healing absence
desperate in the pulling of threads
unravelling in on itself
blind to the tangle that pulls me closer
still waiting for the blood to slow
i’m missing breath like a phantom
eyes drifting colourless, gazing through
how i wish i could belong to you